I bet you guys thought I had disappeared, huh? That I had finally disciplined myself enough to finish this book, and was now too busy and important for silly blog posts about my failures?? Well jokes on me, because I’m back with a wealth of new material and more ADD-fueled frustration on the inability to complete this task!
It’s a bit cathartic, to be honest, this whole spilling the secret parts of myself into blog posts and sending them out into the universe. I’m honestly not sure if anyone reads these things, and that doesn’t even necessarily seem like the point of all this right now. I should probably link this site to my social media, and share with my friends and family to gain some sense of accountability, but…I’m just not sure if I’m there yet. This is probably one of my most secret, fearful dreams, and the process and subsequent struggles are just so painfully personal.
I read something once, where someone said that reading a manuscript could almost be like reading someone’s diary. That the characters and scenarios you shape, their traits and perspectives, always say more about the author than anything else. Just a few terrified thoughts from someone who was raised by a wonderful, but very English, mother and who may be just a little emotionally stunted as a result. JK, mum! Love you! (Just preparing myself in the eventuality I one day actively spread this link around).
So, let’s talk a little about what false promises I intend to make this time! Well, I am doing another type of timed writing challenge! I’ve never had success with NaNoWriMo, and I would have a few days where I would meet my 1600 words a day, but then I would have two days in a row where I’d work, and I’d fall behind…then I would constantly be adding more and more words to my daily requirements until it all felt too impossible. I would also switch tenses and POVs and then go back and waste days as I switched everything over to some new format I had randomly decided on. Long story short; it was always a disaster.
This challenge is one I found through the website I wrote about in my previous post about a year and a half ago (no judgement)! It’s called The Write Practice and they do this challenge every few months where you join a community of like-minded people, have weekly deadlines, and by the end of 100 days you will have a bouncing, baby rough draft. That’s the plan, anyhow. I was sitting at work, listlessly going through my email, and I saw this email describing the process. I’d peripherally heard of it, but it honestly seemed like the best idea I’d ever heard at 3am, and I signed up. It still seems like a good idea, even in the stark light of day, and I’m really…excited.
I guess that’s enough stalling, time for my book plan!